Thoughts

W H E N   I   A M   U N D E R W A T E R   I   F E E L   F R E E    ||  My project is in my thoughts all the time. Trying to figure out why I chose to deal with this idea. Why I want to make a womb. What is a safe place. How is a safe place. Do I want to feel safe. What safe is. I am 22 years old, I don’t want you to see me as a number but our society does so I do it too. I am 22 years old and it’s the first time that I am away from my family. My mom, my dad, my cat, my room, my bed, my friends, my area, my food, my language. My comfort zone. I deleted the two previous sentences twice but I retyped them. It’ s because I think I am being puerile, but that is the truth and maybe I am. I think this is why I have this need of making a womb, a place that I will feel safe.

explanation of the title: Sea is a very big part of my life. I am from Greece and every summer I go to an island or seaside to swim. I had the chance to do scuba diving several times. When I overtook my fear of drowning I felt calm. Floating in the middle of the ocean, seeing only deep blue, without knowing its ending. Hearing only my breathe and my heartbeat. Almost black under my feet and the curious fear of the unknown overwhelming me. I feel free and weird, but calm. Is this has to do with our memory from when we were in the womb? Does our body has memory? Is this why we feel calm in the water? I also do it in my bathtub. I fill my bathtub with water, I lie down and I sink. I calm my heartbeat and I concentrate in the stillness. This soundproof sound inside the water that deforms all of the outer sounds. Like it is more important and bigger that the outer world and doesn’t want this world to infect its world. And I agree. You have done a really good job water, keeping your space uninfected. I feel safe in you.

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